Lily Myers Shrinking Women (X)
omg this is so real, and it’s a huge problem. that happens to me all the time.. every time my brother get angry he screams and breaks things. but no i was taught to hide and bottle up my feelings. becuase my parents would get way to upset if i had problems of feelings. they would be like “what did we do wrong” and that was when i was 4 or 5. now i am 20. and i’ve been having some troubles more now than ever. you see i was bullied a lot when i was a kid. i have social anxiety. i have no friends. my sibilings treat me like i am nothing.. i most of the time i believe them. i hate myself. i cry most of the time. i can’t talk to people. i’ve been through a lot. self-harm, bulimia, etc. i can’t look at myself in the mirror, and i let people treat me like crap. and for the first time in my life my parents realized that i am not happy or at least not happy enough. and they get so upset and angry trying to find a solution. but they don’t care about the reason. my mom once told me that she didn’t know how to help me.. but like in an angry way and i told her ” you know what, i didn’t ask you to help me, i didn’t even ask you to try and understand it, and you know well that i never had”. and that is true , i always see my sibilings talk with my parents about their problems and i don’t get it. i never did it . not even when i was a little girl.. i mean i was 4 and i was bullied, and had no friends and the teachers treated me like shit because of my brother.. i cried almost every nigth when my parents were sleeping. i don’t know how i did it back then when a was so little.. but i don’t know how to live any other way.